Road to Revival

Well it has been QUITE some time since I've written a blog post on here, but I think recent events have warranted a call for the return of this blog.

Since I wrote last, there have been so many exciting things happening!
-I moved back to Orlando
-Started my dream job at Shamu stadium as an Associate Trainer!
-Passed the hardest swim test of my animal training career!
-Got a second job as a Dive Tech at Typhoon Lagoon
-Moved into my new apartment with Buddy :)
-Seen my parents SO much since they're only an hour and a half away now!
-Got to spend time with my grandparents while they were in town!
-Spent some times with my good friends from UCF now that I'm back
-Bought my UCF Young Alumni Football Tickets!
-Got my Rescue Diver Certification!
-...and so much more, but those are a few of the highlights :)


But also since I wrote last, I slipped into a slump and have gained almost 15 pounds since the beginning of this year :( I'm not sure exactly what happened, but I haven't been working out nearly as much as I was, my eating habits have also gotten a little slack since moving back, and I've felt fatigued and unmotivated very often.
At first I blamed it on adjusting back to a daytime schedule and getting settled in from my move, but then I kept making excuses and using those excuses as a crutch for slacking off.

The truth is, I got complacent after I was offered my dream job and felt like I didn't have anything to work towards anymore. I know that I was using the swim test to get this job as subtle motivation for always staying in shape, and since I received the position I haven't found anything to replace that.
But now I miss the way I felt confident and comfortable wearing clothes that were more form fitting, when I didn't worry as much about the way my stomach looked...but now I'm getting more self conscious again, my jeans are fitting tighter, I'm not as lean as I was before and I'm noticing more of a muffin top again...and I do NOT like it! :( I've been bothered by it for the past two months and haven't cared enough to want to change it, but now that I've gained almost fifteen pounds and don't feel happy with myself, I know that I NEED to get back to how I was feeling at the beginning of the year.

Of course there are things that have happened that I don't want to share with the online world, but even those occurrences aren't enough to account for my relapse.

I have my second triathlon this weekend and I'm SO excited for it! I wish I would have been training this whole time for it, but I hope I can use this to help me get out of my slump. Being stuck in a funk for this long when nothing is going wrong is hard to shake because there's nothing pinpointing the way that I'm feeling right now, but I'm going to do everything I can to "change for the better."

Hence, why I'm back to this blog: it helped so much on my journey to weight loss last time that I figured it would be good for me to take some time a few nights a week to reevaluate myself and update on my goals and reflect on my successes/failures to improve upon for the next week.


So today was a rest day since I had to have blood work done this morning...but tomorrow I am waking up at 0445, grabbing a banana and water to go, and doing a 0530 spin class in the morning at the Y! That will give me enough time to come back, make myself a nice breakfast, take Buddy out to go play, make my lunch for work, and take some time to unwind in the morning :)

Starting now, I am getting out of this slump and although I know it's going to be an uphill battle for a while, I know it will be worth it when I stick to it and end up seeing the results I want to :)

I'll wrap up this entry with a song from an inspiring man and my musical hero: Andy Grammer
"I will remind you...I will be your memory."